Seems to be the theme with me lately as far as my weight loss efforts go. Drop a few pounds. Gain a few pounds back. In the end, I am staying around the same weight. But, it is frustrating to go down one week and back up the next. I have only myself to blame. But some weeks it is just so damn hard to lose weight. You get hungry, you eat. You get really hungry, you eat ALOT! Instead of losing weight, you gain weight back and offset your previous week or two of weight loss. I haven’t even come close to going back to where I started and never plan on losing control that much. But, having the ups and downs in weight loss to weight gain from week to week starts to suck after a few weeks of it. My last weigh in I posted was from October 12. I was at 361.8 pounds on that day. True to form, I had some ups and downs since then. The following week I weighed in at 366.2 pounds on October 19 and then followed that up with an almost 8 pound loss weighing in at 358.6 on October 26. Enter the week of Halloween and see how quickly things turn around. The week between Oct. 26 and November 2 I gained it all back weighing in at 369.6 last Friday. Candy sucks and so does the lack of will power i showed during that week! I spent the past week trying to get myself focused again and I maintained the weight, weighing in today at the same thing. It’s hard to just stop, once you start down that road into chocolaty decadence! One piece leads to another and another and another.. and before you know it.. you end up a Fat Bastard!

Lately I have found myself craving the things that I know I shouldn’t be eating. Things like cheese, wine, beer, candy and others. It seems that when I stop eating better foods and start eating food with more fat and more calories that aren’t so good for me, I end up wanting more and more of them. When I eat better foods, It is easier for me to eat less of it. Whether because I am actually getting filled with the nutrients my body needs or another reason, it just seems easier to maintain when I am actually eating better. The big problem is the temptation. Once I give in and have something not so good. I don’t want to stop. So, I guess I need to work on my ability to moderate the bad stuff or just find a way to eliminate it all together. Another problem aside from eating too much of the junk and fatty foods is balancing it all out. Even the days when I am making better choices, I seem to have problems striking that perfect balance that leaves me feeling good and also feeling full. Some weeks it is extremely easy to have the perfect mix of food, other weeks it seems near impossible to eat a proper diet. This is something I really need to focus on and find out why I am having problems with balancing out my foods to be nutritional and filling.

Well, here’s to next week being a better one and working towards ensuring what went up, goes down!

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